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I'm dirty.

my mouth is filled with maggots and

the words i spill are all contaminated.

I hate lying.

My mind is degenerating and blood is flowing down my legs,

i think i am dying.

My flesh is dirty,

stained by all the hands of those

who swore to be carressing me.

You were hurting me.

Nobody heard me scream

no one ever hears my cries for help

they get drowned by your laughter.

Why are u laughing at me?

Can't you see the lines of anguish on my face.

I am tearing at my own flesh

hoping you will stop to rescue me but it is all in vain...

You didnt have to force your way in to me.

Maybe if you had smiled and made a little conversation

i would have opened up to you.

The men in my life have left me feeling insignificant and small.

You want to know what's ironic...

the women in my life have left me feeling worse.

You with your nurturing hands have left me with scars so deep

each time you appear i get the urge to cower away and hide.

I wake up each morning feeling as if i had died the night before...

Flies are swarming around my legs thanks to the fingers and shit

you stuck up into me.

Enjoying me.

My tears, my salty tears mingled with your salty sweat..

I HATE perspiring...

And your eyes,

there was nothing.

Hate i couldve tolerated,

but

NOTHING!!

You just got up from ontop of me and looked at me.

You couldve been looking passed me..

At Nothing...

I don't hate you.

All the time you were grabbing me,

your insulting words thrusting into me,

cursing me with your eyes.

Slashing me with your tongue,

gagging me with your kisses until i choked.

Muscles aching, body twitching with each carress.

i NEVER HATED you..

Is it raining!

Yes it's raining.

Seems fitting that the world should cry with me...

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